After a weekend full of engagements and marriages from friends around me, I realize I am in trouble.

Because of the conversion, am I ever going to be married? I feel that, being a convert, I will never become a true insider, even though I believe with all my heart. How does courtship even work, really, cause I’ve never gotten good directions.

I get the feeling I am at a massive social disadvantage, which, combined with my Autism, put me in an impossible disadvantage.