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Google Starts Caring About Child Porn

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A Mom Anon11/20/2013 5:56:18 am PST

re: #233 HappyWarrior
Yeah, I know, I only recently told my husband about my past, shame and feeling weak and like a freak are powerful things.

Since our sense of self worth is often tied to an occupation, I have found it especially hard to accept that my 20 yrs as a full time parent mean literally nothing to potential employers. No references except personal ones and no one cares about that. I’m still struggling with what I should do now, I’m almost 54 yrs old. I’d love to go to college, but there’s no money for it, and by the time I got out of school I’d be pushing 60. Who the hell would hire me? I thought of starting a business, but without seed money, that’s not going to go far. It’s triggered depression and at this time of year especially (did I mention I hate the holidays? GAH) no one wants to hear that stuff. I recently confessed my hatred of this time of year to a dear friend and she was STUNNED that I could feel like that. It’s not like there’s no reason and I’m Scrooge, I have concrete reasons why. But you can’t say it aloud or people run like crazy and stop having much to do with you.