re: #629 dangerman
august 25 i wrote this post
it’s about how, as a man, i am very careful when i go running.
and was in response to mollie tibbetts being attacked while running and then murdered.- i dont fear for my own self …. i dont have to mostly
- it’s for how i may appear to others
men, women, children, young, old, … in the dark of early morningwhat i do
what i dont do….something i hadn’t thought of, that this list, “through a woman’s eyes’ contains is eye contact
i never make eye contact while running. i always look down and away - no matter who the other person is. a guy who looks like me running toward you is threatening enough.
i could literally pass people i would recognize and not realize it
i still shout out when coming up from behind and i say morning or how you doing or some encouragement to everyone
and yet….2018 america
I noticed this week that I have developed my old tics again.
I startle very easily if a man I do not know extremely well touches me. I will jump and move away immediately. Not a little twitch, it’s obvious.
And I will not make eye contact with a man. Will not do it. I look down. I go submissive. That is NOT like me at all. But I’ve been doing it again.
This week has been fucking brutal. Brutal.