re: #75 researchok
That’s very nice of you to say. I fuck it up, specifically, by coming in combative. I don’t mind taking an unpopular position but, based on my experience “out there” my expectation is to catch some heat so I’m primed to react.. in just the wrong way.
As a kid I was in the gifted class.. I also had the WORST grades of anyone ever in the program and I was on constant trouble for fighting. I felt smart and thought I had good ideas but when it came to defending them my nature was to fight verbally or physically rather than intellectually.
It’s hard, even with total acceptance of the situation, to slow up and calm down enough to think it through. It’s really.. REALLY hard.. but much more rewarding.