I am noticing alot of people telling me to relax as I am still young, in regard to relationships.

I think a big part of the problem is that I don’t really feel young anymore. I’ll share the explanation I gave to a friend:

During my last semester, and until May 2013, I suffered from Clinical Depression. At one point, the bottom fell out, and I became suicidal (I came to the conclusion, in my mental state, that hell would be better than being abandoned by everyone (It’s what I thought at the time, I’m sorry).) I did get better by May 2013. But I did lose my optimism, and most of the energy I had through college.