I’ve been watching interviews of combat vets on Youtube. Very compelling, but very somber. There’s no Ra Ra Patriotism or heroics fetishism in it. Guys just doing what they could to survive, watching their friends get blown to bits, realizing the Leadership was figuring it out just like they were, going into battle Berzerker mode and not remembershing shit for several hours but having blood all over your uniform, not knowing if it’s yours, theirs, or your comrades, or what’s left of your uniform.

Then… boop. Back to life as if nothing happened. I can’t imagine I would handle that well.