TPM:

Begolly confided in fellow jihadist enthusiast “Khalidabdalhakim” in an online conversation in November that he “really started to hate this society” after an encounter with a Christian minister at a young age.

“when i was like 13 or 14 some queer he tried to kidnap me,” Begolly wrote. “he came to me and put his hand on my le[g] and said…hey sweetie and i said who r u? he said he was a christian minister…he said the world would be a better place without women. he [g]ot closer and whisper in my ears… there would be just us men… but alhamdullah… i escaped.”

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His ideology is an eccentric and disjointed mix of Islamic extremism, an admiration for Adolf Hitler, hatred for both Democrats and Republicans (the former for their support of “queers and abortions and anti firearms” and the latter because they “destory [sic] other countrys”), racism against African-Americans, admiration for the founding fathers and a militia mentality.

“when i wake up in the morning…the first thing i think about is killing…seriously… i think about killing all the time,” he wrote in one conversation. “as i type this…my AK is propped up next to me…mujahideen style.”

He was training, he wrote, to be killed as a martyr and believed he’d be rewarded in heaven, likely with 79 virgins.

When the cops found him, they’d find a “bulge in my pants…they know i see something when i am killed that make me realllllllllly happy.”

Fantasies about women played a big role in Begolly’s discussions. He recalled a dream he had where he was at a “really fancy dinner” with flowers, caviar and sterling silver ware, where he encountered “the most beautiful girl i ever see” who promised to marry him if he was martyred.

But in real life, he said he was ashamed to go on a date because of his poor manners.

People are sick.