Having another mood-swing again.

At least nowadays I am now self-aware enough to know when they are happening. In this case, relationships seem to be the issue. Namely because the cynical side has finally joined in.

For example. Why would anybody want me. Between my Asperger’s Syndrome, and the other disorders, I realize I am defective from an evolutionary standpoint. Why would anyone want me?

Not only that, but a friend of mine has been saying I have to be realistic in relationships because of the combination of being a convert and Autistic. That it will take longer, and I need to trust in Allah that someone will come across.

The difference being that human were given sentience, and we often don’t follow Allah’s plan. So if I wait, the likelihood I find someone dwindles, because I am not that attractive a prospect, and I simply cannot see signals if anyone likes me.