re: #41 makeitstop

He’d been suffering from a degenerative nerve condition in his hands, and had apparently slipped into depression.

As a musician who broke a finger two years ago, I can sort of understand. I was only away from the guitar for two months, and it affected me the same way - that was a very dark time. I can’t begin to imagine having to put down the guitar for the rest of my life.

I can also understand this. There is so much I used to do with my hands that I can no longer do. I can’t sit and do nothing (even while watching TV). I used to do fine needle work, beadwork, tatting. Now I can crochet for a little while with a big thick crochet hook. I can do a little mending. I can read. Oh, yes, I can smoke… .

As the rest of my body is betraying me, my life is getting more and more boring.

If I didn’t already know how to meditate, I’d have to learn.

also, when one thinks in terms of the media one uses (musical instrunment, pigment, code, whatever) and one can no longer implement the ideas the artists brain seem to generate of their own volition, it is very difficult to cope.