re: #177 teleskiguy

I honestly believe that most suicides aren’t about death. They’re about wanting the pain to stop. Depression lies like a motherfucker, tells you no one cares, your life is worthless and you are not worthy of love. It doesn’t just go away when you’re having a good day, or by thinking more positive thoughts(that drives me completely into a fit a wanting to slap people). It hurts. every.fucking.day. It’s there when you wake up and before you fall asleep. It’s there when you’re celebrating something and on the outside people think you’re fine.

It’s relentless. And exhausting. It gets in the way of everything no matter how successful you are or aren’t. And after awhile a lot of people just can’t cope anymore. It’s not selfish, it’s sad. When your brain is wired this way you don’t think too far around the corner, you just want the pain to stop.

What we fucking need is more mental healthcare options. Facilities that don’t cost 40K a month for care that’s not always based on science and medicine. More research into how our brains work and how much we actually can do as patients and how much medical intervention works and how it varies in individuals. Research into treatment options. We also lack the sheer numbers of therapists and medical personnel needed to handle the issue. College degrees are not cheap and I fear a lot of awesome potential doctors and therapists are repelled by the cost. There aren’t enough beds, the system is broken. Stigma doesn’t help either.

We have work to do.