re: #237 CuriousLurker

Things like these and Obama’s reponse are the only thing keeping me from just chucking in my membership card for humanity. It’s a thin relief though, since the more I see and read outside of safe havens like this, the more I come to realize that the rest of the country is far more in tune to the Ben Shapiros and Bobby Jindals than to the President Obamas.

The Xenophobia and hate of the silent majority is real and it’s pretty much ubiquitous. And it feels like no matter how hard I do my part to fight it, the result is either angry rejection, angry contrarianism, or simple apathy. It feels like any contribution I can have to change minds instead changes minds toward the other way. I’ve seen liberals go full on xenophobia over shit like this and immigration and never any similar vice versa reaction. It’s always a lurch rightward toward hate and knee-jerk retaliation.

Paris has only convinced me further that this country is hard-wired for the right and its brand of hate and prejudice, and any attempts to fight it seem to only feed it the more as people decide to shun you.

I fucking hate feeling like this to, because it underscores one simple thing: I am not American. I am not American because I’m not allowed to be American. I am an outcast in the country, and I’m not even Gay, Black, or Muslim, the unholy trinity of Truly Super Motherfucking Not-American.

This country was never meant for someone like me and it never will be, because it feels like any attempts to fight will simply cause the rest of the country to hate me and ideas like mine all the more.